Who am I???

WHO AM I?? WHAT'S MY FUTURE?? WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN TO ME?? AM I READY FOR THIS?? ARE THEY READY FOR ME?? These questions always ring in my head whenever I face examinations. I don't even know why..

AT THE AGE OF 15..

This was it.. My PMR exam was getting nearer. This exam determined my future. Whether I could get a better school or put me in the SCIENCE class. Well to get there I must STUDY, STUDY and STUDY. But I guess studying and playing does not combine well together. It was hard enough I had to focus on the topic from form1 'till form3. IT'S IMPOSSIBLE!! There's just so much to memorize. Too many subjects.. Well only 8 (to some of you..) But it seems A LOT to study in a short time. huhu A few days 'till exam.. My friends and I began to visit our teachers for a last minute revision and sought their advice and words of wisdom. It helped.. Other than that, we asked them for their forgiveness.. (MINTA RESTU LA.. TANPA BERKAT CIKGU XBLEH JUGA..huhu) There was just not enough time to study.. All we can do and knew was doing revision. PLENTY OF THEM.. (JGN LUPA SOLAT JUGA.. WAKTU BGINI ELOKLAH KITA BERTAWAKAL PADA ALLAH YANG MAHA ESA..)Sometimes waking up early in the morning to get a fresh start.. According to motivators everywhere, waking up early in the morning to study is actually very affective. Wash our face. Turn on the table light.. Take a revision book.. AND START MEMORIZING.. It works when u feel fresh.. When u are sleepy it doesn't work because u ended up thinking of sleep other than what's in the book.. (Believe me.. I tried. And I ended up going back to sleep.. huhu)

A day before the exam..
Me and friends started to do study groups at school.. We began to ask each other about what's going to be in the exam.. What's the spot questions.? What should we remember.. It's tough. We began writing words on tissue as a FRIENDSHIP thing.. We didn't have enough money at the time to buy expensive one's. Besides, it's in the heart that matters..

This was it.. The examination.. PMR is here. We couldn't do anything anymore.. There's no turning back.. Teachers began to hug the students. Some even cried. Everyone were nervous.. But that feeling began to disappear.. We were sitting on our chairs and table. Then we started to think.. Why were we that nervous..? Everything looked the same.. Nothing different at all from our monthly exams.. We began to answer the questions.. Thank god.. I got out of the hall safe and sound.. Nothing happened.. I donno what was making me so nervous to get in there in the first place. Then I realized, it was nothing.. It's just in my head.. The results were out.. I was so.. what to say? Hmm.. maybe just HORRIBLY FRIGHTENED.. I was afraid.. Questions began to pop into my head.. HAVE I DONE MY BEST?? AM I READY FOR THE FUTURE?? DID I FAILED?? All of these questions were giving me a major headache.. When the teacher called my name.. My heart just skipped a beat.. There it was.. my scores.. What I've achieved.. It wasn't EXCELLENT but it was good enough for me to get to science class.. I guess I didn't do that well..

SPM..
Now I will be facing an even more challenging test.. My SPM.. I don't know whether I'm ready or not.. BY the year 2010.. This could my FUTURE.. Failing this can mean the end of a perfect career.. The end of a perfect life.. I MUST TRY MY BEST FOR THIS EXAM.. Putting high hopes on it to determine WHO I AM in the future..